Leapfrog - SOLD
30" x 40" oil on canvas
One of the most common issues I see with people learning to draw and paint is giving up too soon.If expectation is not met in a short period of time, boredom sets in or a feeling of "I can't do this." The point at which that feeling is reached is usually the pivotal point for a piece of art. The bones of the piece are in place, but the final vision can't be seen, so the maker becomes frustrated and it is easier to stop than forge ahead. Keeping the vision that inspired in the first place and knowing that it will take time and hard work to reach that vision seems to be the issue.
When I started this painting of boats, I screwed up the initial drawing. That could have been enough for the inner voice to say "stop", but I didn't let it. I redrew the piece then started on the painting. All the way through, I revised and resolved problems. The process of creating is one of constant conversation in my head that guides my hand and eye in what to put where, what colour to choose, and whether it works for me or not. I don't let the inner voices get to me much anymore. I shut them down and its quite amazing how quickly they retreat when they're stood up to. If I let them in, they'll tell me that I can't draw or paint; that I should stop because what I'm painting is rubbish and I should go take up knitting again.
The half way point in any drawing or painting is full of pain and questions. Its meant to be. It forces you to think through, seek the vision, resolve the problems and know that what lies ahead WILL work.
Still reading the biography of Lucien Freud, it seems none of us are alone in this journey of self doubt. Freud used to lie on the floor and cry or have total tantrums when starting most paintings, or sometimes part way through, as they frustrated him so much. But he kept going. That is key. Half way is half way - to hell or heaven. I choose heaven.